Friday, March 16, 2012

Make Me So Aware (Our Union)

My heart, oh Lord, it aches.

But it is a dull ache.

I feel but do not feel.

I yearn to yearn, but do not.



Christ Jesus, you were forsaken

yet not alone. Desolate

but not abandoned. Struck down

but not destroyed.



Consume me, as I consume You...

As I approach You,very You run to meet me.

Make me into Yourself.

As bread becomes part of me,

it becomes Wholly You. This Bread

Come down from Heaven

Enters me, that I mat enter

Him. You.



Jesus, may I be so enthralled

by the mystery of your Body and Blood

by the Passion of Your Sacred Heart

that I will always be

aware

and feel

in my poor heart

the effects of Your Redemption

the affects of York Redemption.



Our union.



Make me a log in the furnace of Your love.



Consume me.

Make me one with You.

Make me burn with the fire of Your love.

Make me the fire of Your love.

Make me.

Remake me.

Create a new heart for me.

Jesus, make my heart like Yours. Make my heart Yours.



The Mass is ended. It Missal Est.

Let me be so aware of our union, Jesus,

that I am, that I become, that I

am

You, Your love, Your Heart

to the world.

Amen

Nil hoc verbo Veritatis verius. Part IV

IV.

And You, Jesus,

You are my beloved.

Nil hoc verbo Veritats verius. Part III

III.


Let Me come, then.

Beloved.

Kelly.

Kelly.

Oh, Kelly, I love you.

Be Mine forever

And I will be yours.



Your head is righ:

You are not worthy of Me.



But I do not care.

I come to give

My self

to

your self.



Let our selves

be one self.



Relax.

Just be

loved

be loved

beloved.

Do not fight.



Float

in the ocean of My love.



Be.

Just be.

Be forever.

I will it.



I love you.

You, Kelly,

You are My Beloved.

Nil hoc verbo Veritatis verius. Part II

II.


You can see in my heart.

You know I love you...



But see! I am not worthy

of You

of Your love.



Besides, love is self-gift.

I cannot give You this.

This self is broken.

I want to give You the best.



Not this.

Not this mess.

this broken

fallen

crumpled

heap.



I love You.

My heart wants to

embrace

melt into

become one with

You

Your Heart.



But me head.

Oh! My head!

It tells me

how little

how much

how far.

My head says,

"Stay away from me, Lord

for I am a sinful soul."



but my heart says, "Come."

Nil hoc verbo Veritatis verius. (Truth Himself speaks truly, or there's nothing true.)


I.

You are my Beloved, Kelly.

Kelly, Kelly. Listen to Me.

I love you. You are my prized possession.

More than that: I love you so very much.

Can't you see?

You look at My Sacred Heart and see

only a refuge.

It is a refuge

but a refuge of love,

for love

for my beloved.

Kelly,

for you.



I love you.

You are My Beloved.

What can I do to show you this?

Listen, oh listen!

Kelly!

I call you My Beloved

and so you are.

You don't know words greater than

Beloved

if you did, I could express myself with them

Oh My Beloved!



Behold! Look! I come!

Running to you,

My Beloved.



Why do you turn from Me?

Do you not love Me?